Monday, September 21, 2009

Lost not Found

Yesterday i was out in the streets all day running some errands. I washed my car, purchased some movie tickets for 'New Moon' early, I did some groceries and passed through my college library. All to realize around 6:45pm that amidst all this I lost my USB cord with my story saved on there. I will not shy in saying that I cried for about an hour, and i woke up crying and as I try to recollect the last 2 chapters (chapters 8 and 9) my eyes get all teary and i can't seem to shake it off. Luckily I had chapters 1-7 saved on my PC but chapter 8 alone was like 12 pages (aprox) and i had already written like 4 pages to chap 9. Total of about 16 pages. I went back to the place i ate and it wasn't there, the car wash was closed so i couldn't check there. I feel so lost. Like a piece of me was ripped right out of my heart. I'm sitting here in front of my computer forcing myself not to weep and just try to squeeze what i can remember. I just finished writing it like 2 days ago so its still fresh but that isn't the least of my worries. It might sound silly but i am afraid someone will find it and somehow "distribute" it. I have never published anything and I am so afraid that will happen. I have worked on that story for about a year. I can't believe i let myself lose it. I keep trying to remember when i last saw it but my mind keeps playing tricks on me. I see it this way. If it ever does get somehow published with out my name as the author, i hope this blog serves as proof that I wrote it. And if it ever does happen I hope the bastards have nasty nightmares of guilt for the rest of their existance. I have worked so damn hard on it! the other day i spent my entire morning and most the the afternoon editing it and writing chapters 8 and 9. I was getting it ready to take to my high school english teacher. I can't express enough how upset I am that i have lost my USB. and no, i did not think to save it somewhere else. Like i said, i am lucky that chap 1-7 were somehow retrieved. For the record: I named chap 8-The Sanvers, and Chap 9-Dear Diary. I just pray that if someone did find it that they just deleted whatever they found and decided to use the USB for their personal usage.

Feeling very blue,
Sapphire Blue
for the record my real name is: Xochitl Garcia

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Update on the new arrival

Hey =) my sister's baby should be comin any day now. She is officially due tomorrow the 9th. I am so anxious to meet that little baby girl (or boy: Doc says it’s a girl, but you never know) I have my camera ready and charged so I can take many pictures of the new baby. Very exciting moment =)

Torture

‘Tȯr-chər’
The ongoing debate of torture is one that has survived through out the years; it dates back possibly to the pre-historic times. Evidence of torture in our history is elaborate in the way that it existed even in those times when new and brilliant inventions were industrialized, it existed in periods when the most religious moments took place, as it exist still today. Such an inescapable subject as torture should be examined in broad perspectives so it can be better understood. Torture’s is defined by the Merriam-Webster dictionary as the infliction of intense pain as from burning, crushing, or wounding to punish, coerce, or afford sadistic pleasure. The Convention Against Torture defines it as the intentional infliction of severe physical or mental pain or suffering and it requires states to criminalize torture.
Two very distinct essays that will help me better explain this topic is, “Inhuman Behavior,” which was written by Major General Kermit D. Johnson, the other is called, “A Case for Torture,” written by Mirko Bagaric. Kermit D. Johnson is a decorated Army officer who has served as Chaplain in the Washington Office of The Presbyterian Church. Mirko Bagaric is head of Deakin University Law School as well as a professor of the law, he also has written numerous of books. They both discuss the same issue with opposite views all the while standing by it so fiercely that they describe their points of view very clearly and precise.
In “Inhuman Behavior,” Johnson says, “torture is a form of terrorism,” obviously stating his point of view from the gecko regarding torture. Being that his career implies working with a church, his chaplain positions seems to influence in his decisions, “I would say that if war causes us to suppress our deepest religious, ethical and moral convictions, then we have indeed caved in to a "higher religion" called war”. Johnson considers torture’s only purpose is to “terrify prisoners so they will yield information,” he also states that when torture is encouraged “two war crimes are committed,” against the torturer and the tortured. According to Johnson, the individuals’ conscience will forever carry the burden of shame, guilt, mental torment and self-hatred. Johnson spots areas of concern in the amendment that prohibits torture, offered by Senator John McCain. The definition of torture has been reinterpreted by the Justice Department into physical pain amounting to torture that must be the same in intensity to the pain associated with severe substantial injury such as organ failure, impairment of bodily function, or death. In his essay Johnson also states that “the public has been dragged through a labyrinth of denials, retractions, redefinitions and tortured arguments, all designed to justify and rationalize lowered moral standards in the treatment of prisoners, not to strengthen and defend high ethical standards.”
In “A Case for Torture” Mirko Bagaric talks about just that; a scenario in which torture is the only logical reasoning to a situation needing strict dealings, “torture is permissible where the evidence suggests that this is the only means, due to the immediacy of the situation...” he goes on by giving a couple of examples in a hostage setting and saying that if one was given the option of choosing to inflict harm on a “wrongdoer” in order to save the life of an innocent person that it would be immoral to select the life of the “wrongdoer”. Bagaric questions “How can it be wrong to violate an even less important right (the right to physical integrity) by torturing the aggressor in order to save a life…” then he states that “if you start allowing torture in a limited context, the situations in which it will be used will increase.” He believes that in relatively limited situations, torture will persuade communities to think cautiously about ethical decisions. Basically Mirko Bagaric thinks that torture should be acceptable and clearly states that if lives are lost based on the fact that it was not decided to take action of torture then it is “code for moral indifference”.
On contrast to Bagaric’s beliefs, Johnson does not think that torture is the answer in any type of situation. Bagaric uses scenarios in which he thinks torture is the obsolete key in saving an innocent life while Johnson believes that both parties (torturer and the tortured) are victims. Johnson defends the rights of both; he states that “when ever we torture or mistreat prisoners, we are capitulating morally to the enemy -- in fact, adopting the terrorist ethic that the end justifies the means.” He believes that the U.S. should set an example instead of prevailing in the means of torture. Bagaric’s essay states the opposite; he thinks it is unethical, immoral, and completely wrong to even consider choosing sides. According to Bagaric, in a case where one must pick, the only choice should be the innocent and if torture is the option to save a life then it should not be questioned.
Both essays rely on examples that lean toward political leverage. In “A Case for Torture,” Bagaric includes circumstances with criminal affairs, and the choice must be made between the guiltless and the illicit. His examples include decisions that must be made by the police in a case of a hostage situation. Johnson focuses his examples on the officers, terrorists, interrogators and highlights the amendment offered by Senator McCain. In order to backup their points of view they dug deep in what they were well-informed. For Bagaric it was law enforcement, and for Johnson it was his profession. At the end of his essay Bagaric hopes that the debate on torture will “prompt us to correct some of these fundamental failings.” Johnson ends his with a statement Captain Ian Fishback made in a letter to Senator McCain, “Some argue that since our actions are not as horrifying as al-Qaeda’s we should not be concerned. When did al-Qaeda become any type of standard by which we measure the morality of the United States?” If Johnson was not clear to which side he stood on regarding the strong debate of torture, this would have amplified it greatly.